My history to explain this blog a little

In Elementry I was a very shy but once I made friends in my class I became more outgoing. it stayed this way until I went into 4th grade. one day in 4th grade I laid my head down and some kids thought I was picking my nose so they all started I was weird and by that time I was getting picked on some midget but I decided not to say anything because my best friend and the midget became friends, and I didn't want to start bad blood but I did snap a few times and told the teacher but the teacher said I was being a tattle tell, but that was wrong because my best friend and the midget were starting to bully me. From then on I became consumed by my shy nature and never went outside to play at school much and then I slowly became lonely. My sisters never really cared about me and mom and dad to me at that age were my enemy. I ever thought of suicide but then I went to a school where some kids became my friends and it was fun for a while but I soon learned that the people that I would've called my friends a year ago never talked to me during my senior year they would always avoid me when someone else is starting to talk even though I was talking to them. They would only come to me only when they wanted to play on computer, which annoyed me. well this is my past, my present, but I wish for someone to help me change my future, because it's lonely :'(